#Before I Was A Mom

Before I was a Mom, I made and ate hot meals.  I had unstained clothing.  I had quiet conversations on the phone.  

Before I was a Mom I slept as late as I wanted and worked out when I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed. 

Before I was a Mom I cleaned my house each day.  I never tripped over toys or forgot words to lullabies.  

Before I was a Mom I didn’t worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.  I never thought about immunizations. 

Before I was a Mom I had never been spit up on, pooped on, chewed on or pinched by tiny fingers.

Before I was a Mom I had complete control of my mind, my thoughts and my body.  I slept all night.

Before I was a a Mom I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests or give shots.  I never looked into teary eyes and cried.  I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.  I never sat up late at night watching a baby sleep.  

Before I was a Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn’t want to put it down.  I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn’t stop the hurt.  I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. 

Before I was a Mom I didn’t know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.  I didn’t know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.  I didn’t know that bond between a mother and her child.  I didn’t know that something so small could make me feel so important.  Before I was a Mom I’d never gottten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.  I had never known the warmth.  The joy.  The love.  The heartache.  The wonderfullness or the satisfaction of being a Mom.  

I didn’t know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.   I never knew that I could love someone so much.  I never knew I would LOVE being a Mom.

Our Boys!
Our Boys!

So many truths and now I am a Mom to my two beautiful boys.  There are days that I need to remember all of the above– the days where my two baby boys test my patience.  Being a Mom is the most amazing journey in life!

Some women, as did I, struggle with fertility and read this post and feel like it won’t ever be them– it will happen.  Infertility hits so many women and the one thing that we have to remember is that it’s out of our hands.  That is something I was told over and over again while we went through it and it was hard to hear.  It’s so true though– we all try to manipulate, force agendas and control situations but we need to let go and let God work– we don’t have to always be “in charge.”  Try less and TRUST more.

To mommas everywhere… PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE!! 🙂

#ALynn

Advertisements

#WHAT Drives YOU? #PurposeDrivenLife

#Gottahavefaith

What drives you?  Guilt? Resentment and anger? Materialism? Need for approval? Fear?  These are the top 5 most common-“drive” meaning “to guide, to control or to direct”- I know I have been driven by fear!  It has overtaken my life in many incidents– fear to venture out and fear of judgement.  For the past 5 or so years (I think since I’ve gotten pregnant and had kids) I have had fear to fly!! I don’t understand why or how because growing up with a dad that’s a pilot, we traveled all over the place as a family– both commercial and on my dads Beechcraft.  I let this fear control me and lately determine if we will go on vacation because I don’t want to fly, but will drive there!! I know it’s completely out of my hands if that plane is going to go down but it’s a control issue with me— but it’s NOT IN MY CONTROL!! We have driven out to Utah the past 2 years and are going to again this summer to see Kip’s family.  I would actually fly out to Utah to see them when we do but my husband and I have grown to enjoy this trip- it’s a time to actually have a conversation (well when our 2 and 4 year old aren’t fighting or screaming!).  Does anyone else have this same fear?  I have talked to my older sister and even some friends and yes, they said they have felt this fear too– especially since having kids.  But I know it’s a fear I need to get over by just growing in my faith!!

My other fear, especially as of lately, has been this  blog– it is something I have wanted to do for quite a long time.  I read many blogs on my phone on a daily basis– family ones, faith ones, fitness ones, food ones– ones that I will share on this blog as well that hopefully you guys will find as entertaining.  It’s a place to voice our opinion, get ideas from other people or just a place to FEEL NORMAL and realize that LIFE HAPPENS and we all are in the same boat a lot of times in our lives!! Life isn’t easy!! It’s hard to let people into your life, especially your personal and spiritual life.  It’s a fear of BEING JUDGED. My sister and I had fear of starting our ‘Live, Love & Inspire’ Facebook page– would people like it, would people find it annoying, would people realize that we want to help motivate them?  Was it out of our comfort zone?!? OF COURSE it was!! But like I tell my high school students, and even have the quote on my wall, “You will never grow as a person until you step out of your comfort zone.”  We finally were able to overcome that fear and have realized that people enjoy reading REAL LIFE happenings and people need help being held accountable.   So with that being said, I hope my/our continued blogging is something you may be able to relate to, comment on and even learn from.  It’s not easy, but if it was easy, everyone would do it!

So what drives you?  How can you change what drives you so that it focuses you on a more ‘Purpose Driven Life’?  The greatest benefits of living a purpose-driven life: giving meaning to life, simplifying life, focusing life and motivating your life. “If you want your life to have impact, focus it.”

HAPPY SATURDAY!!

#ALynn

#PurposeDriven #Day2

YOU ARE NOT AN ACCIDENT: Today talked about how we were made for a reason and our life has a profound meaning.  We discover that meaning and purpose ONLY when we make God the reference point of our lives.

We all struggle to find ourselves sometime in our life–this poem sums it up:

You are who you are for a reason.

You’re part of an intricate plan.

You’re a precious and perfect unique design,

Called God’s special woman or man.

You look like you look for a reason.

Our God made no mistake.

He knit you together within the womb,

You’re just what he wanted to make.

The parents you had were the ones he chose,

And no mater how you may feel,

They were custom-designed with God’s plan in mind,

And they bear the Master’s seal.

No, that trauma you faced was not easy.

An God wept that it hurt you so;

But it was allowed to shape your heart

So that into his likeness you’d grow.

You are who you are for a reason,

You’ve been formed by the Master’s rod.

You are who you are, beloved,

Because there is a God!

QUESTION TO CONSIDER TODAY:  What areas of your personality, background, and physical appearance are you struggling to accept?

#Day2

#ALynn

#PurposeDrivenLife #Day1

In my first #Faith post I had said I was going to begin reading this book–today I have started!  A journey with a purpose– the title of the first part of this book written by Rick Warren, hits home to me because why are we truly here on Earth?  The Purpose Driven Life will help one to understand why we are alive and reveal God’s amazing plan for each one of us.  It All Starts with God– was so hard for me to understand after the first time I read this book but makes so much more sense now.  Is it hard to ACTUALLY live this way?!? YES!! We live in a world where everyone is so self-centered and worried ONLY about themselves that we forget the big picture. IT’S NOT ABOUT YOU!  “You were made by God and for God–and until you understand that, life will never make sense.”

I mentioned in my first #Faith post that my husband and I have really been trying to focus on our faith and building our lives around God. It’s tough at times to understand it all.  It’s tough at times to realize it’s not about us, our families and our careers.  “Everything got started in him and finds its purpose in him.” Colossians 1:16b.

My faith has definitely grown these past 4-5 years since we started attending Sunnybrook Church in Sioux City Iowa, but it’s a journey that we are still on, as a family.  I have to be honest that I struggled finding any meaning of Church/God as I grew up in the Catholic church— never would I bad mouth the church, but it never made sense to me and I had a hard time getting myself and husband to go.  Sometimes, to find your faith, you need to venture out and find a ‘church home.’ Where you are comfortable and where things make sense.  Where you can be you and FIND YOU & YOUR PURPOSE!

The question for me and maybe you today:  In spite of all the advertising around us, how can we remind ourselves that life is really about living for God, not myself?

#ALynn

#myfaith

For years I thought I was living by faith and relying on the Holy Spirit, when I was actually living by my own will-power — and going nowhere.  After my husband and I started going to Sunnybrook Church in Sioux City, Iowa I came to realize I have a long ways to go with growing in faith.  We were attracted to the church after going through a year of infertility.  People were talking about this ‘Sunnybrook’ church and I questioned it because I was raised a Catholic and KNEW my parents wouldn’t be thrilled about us going.  When we finally went for the first time, the first sermon we heard was in regards to couples going through infertility and how it’s out of our hands and God would let us know when the time was right.  It touched us both and 5 years later, we are still going to Sunnybrook.

I know I have grown in my faith throughout these years; we have joined small groups, had our youngest son baptized there (our oldest was baptized in the Catholic church) and we recently became members.  One of our small groups we joined was called ‘Marriage on the Rock’– which at first I thought it meant it was for marriages that were struggling– was such an eye opener for me.  It made me realize how men’s thought process is WAY different than women’s!!! They DEFINITELY think about sex A LOT more!!! HAHA! But in all seriousness, it made me and my husbands marriage THAT much better!! We also were involved in a small group, led by my brother-in-law, and included a few mutual friends.  My brother in law is very strong in his faith and I learned so much from him and felt closer to God than ever in my life.  We had a great group, but everyone got busy and it was hard to meet and so we stopped meeting.  Since then I feel like my faith has taken a back seat in my life and I need to find it again.  We go to church every Sunday with the boys and love it, but I need something else to help me grow.  Any ideas would be great!

I do plan to start reading The Purpose Driven Life again— my husband and I read that in our small group and I loved it and think I could read it ten times and still find something new to learn.  So that is my goal this summer while I’m off from teaching and I want to bring it to my blog to help me reach others too!!

More details to come– but in the mean time I am going to continue my daily praying, tithing to our wonderful church and being the best person I can be and live for God to the best of my abilities!

#ALynn